Tucker: A True Blessing

   I vividly remember June 5, 2009 like it was yesterday. It was the day we were packing up to head to the lake for a whole week of fun, family and sweet summertime. Our perfect, complete family. We had 2 boys and 1 girl and life was great. Dylan was 5, Madi was 3 and Dustin was 7 months.  I had not been feeling great for a few weeks, but never thought much of it. I was so excited to be going on a family vacation together that I was able to overcome the way I felt and I had pretty much packed everything - all we needed was Daddy to be home from work and we were off! I woke up on that Friday morning excited for our trip - just a few last minute things when all of a sudden it hit me. I still don't feel good. I'm tired. I'm nauseous. I'm achy. Oh, no! I'm pregnant! I rush around and load the kids up. We run to the store for the last minute things we need and....a pregnancy test...or 4! wink! I rush back home and immediately take the test. Yes, all 4 of them. I figured the first test was just broken - there was no way I could be pregnant. Our family is complete. However, after test two, three and four I figured it was safe to assume that they weren't all wrong! After the initial shock of baby number 4 being on the way I was so excited. I couldn't wait to meet this new blessing!
   On January 22, 2010 we welcomed 7 pound 12 ounce Tucker Scott Jordan. There is no other feeling in this world than holding your baby for the first time. Holding baby number four for the first time was no less emotional, no less touching and no less exciting than holding baby number one for the first time. There are really no words to explain the love that a mother feels for her child. While emotionally things are no different with a fourth child - man are things different with a fourth child. Never ever would baby number one have left our house without being dressed perfectly. Often days Tucker doesn't make it out of his jammies before noon. Never would my first child have been in a diaper long enough to even come close to "peeing through it".  Never would I have let my first child eat a cheerio off of the floor at a restaurant, sleep in the clothes he wore that day or go two whole days without a bath! Never. Poor fourth baby! wink!
    It is so hard to believe that in just 18 days Tucker is going to be two. It has been a very long two years. It has been two years that seemed so hard and so tough, but that I wouldn't have traded for anything in this world. These two years and our sweet Tucker have taught me so much. Courage, how to trust in the Lord, patience, perseverance, wisdom and love. Odd, but true.
    Tucker is such a fun little guy. He is becoming such a little person. He loves trucks, trains and four wheelers, Braeden Davis, lollipops, making new friends, green beans, biting, kissing to say he is sorry, dancing and singing, splashing in the bath, praying so he can yell Amen at the end, making nurses and doctors smile, cuddling with mommy and most of all he loves his Daddy! 
    It seems a little funny to say, but I admire Tucker. He is so brave. So courageous. He has been through so many tests, procedures, blood draws and more and he faces them. He faces them without batting an eye. He has been through more in the past 23 months than a lot of people go through in a life time. We are so glad to have a diagnosis and to be able to move on. To know where to go from here. We appreciate everyone's prayers, support and kind words. All we can do now is put one foot in front of the other, one day at a time and lean on the Lord like we never have before.
    It amazes me daily that while it was so hard for me to "accept" that we were having a fourth baby in the beginning - now, so much has come out of his birth. Just like every other child, Tucker is such a blessing and I can't wait to see how the Lord uses him for His glory.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. -Proverbs 3:5